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Everything blog up here is just the feeling of myself and my view of this issue... The issue is no longer a issue anymore. Blogging this up is not to create a big wooha but just to let you know how i feel... So if anyway offended.. PLEASE don't take it to heart...

OPENING

Feel like SIMPLY BO CHAP (Don't Care)! Yes, cannot be BOTHERED.

****The things going to appear in this entry may let some people to get unhappy but..

I think it is time to blog it up.****

A ISSUE TO MENTION

I had been keeping all these inside me for a very very very long time (few weeks after 31st August 2008, Friday).

THE DAY/DATE TO REMEMBER

31st August 2008, Friday.This is the day I think I will never forget. It is because hiccups occurred in my life. After being friends for 5/6yrs, no one told me that they (names not to be mentioned), my friends... closest friends DISLIKE me as FRIEND at all. This is really hurtful. One of you told me that you all did not say it in the past, is because you all scared it may destroy our friendship. But, I can say that if you all had told me earlier, the hurt is not that strong. Yes, our friendship maybe built up strong after these years. But, the hurt is deeper because of the STRONG friendship. Yes, you may not be a sweet talker, but do you know that the way you phrase that SENTENCE was REALLY... HURTFUL (NOT the truth you said that hurts)?

THE DECEIVED

All these years, I was being deceived... deceived from my friends. Why DECEIVED? It was because in front of me, they were like okay and nothing wrong, very CLOSED to me but behind my back.. I don't know. Do friends need to be truthful? Yes, I need FRIENDS that ARE TRUTHFUL to me. I thought friends are like MIRROR for us? Mirror that is for us to look at and correct our mistakes? But from you, I cannot see that MIRROR from this issue.

*This particular part is just simply demo.. Don't take it to heart if you're the person mentioned... (NO NAME MENTIONED HERE)

THE REPLY

Guess what? When asked to say your true feeling about if you DISLIKE me as a friend, ONE of your REPLY is SIMPLY IRRELEVANT! YES! IRRELEVANT.. I already bracket this (PLEASE REPLY HONESTLY)... You gave me this answer: "Frankly speaking no. becos i always thk humans r nt perfect n frens shld b magnaimous of each other's flaws." When asked to put aside such thinking, your anwser is this: "............................. humans r nt perfect we're unable to satisfy every1. im sure there'll actually b ppl in H*** *-* who dislike me as well." Hey, I am asking about if without such thinking, will you still think the same way? This answer is just simply IRRELEVANT. Actually, from your ANSWERS, I can already get the picture. The fact is, you are not really answering from your heart.

CONCLUSION- PART I

You may think that getting sad/hurt about this issue is CHILDISH/ NO SENSE, but if you were in my shoes, you will not think this way anymore. You may say that it is PAST, but it is not PAST anymore when you decided to bring it up. Yes, I cannot please everyone. BUT, why don't try to please as many people as possible if you can? Isn't it better to have more friends than enemies? Or rather have more people DISLIKING you? You may have your point in your thinking concept. But, if you can actually reduce the number of people you offended isn't it better?

CONCLUSION- PART II (TOO LATE)

It is too late for me to CHANGE myself and those people who you said that dislike me and have no good impression of me. I can only let those people continuing their disliking and their no way good impression of me. AND, I also can only try to change those friends that I am going to meet in the next part of my life the impression of me and make them not offended by me.