D.O.U.G.L.A.S

Happy?! Your name is up here?! LOL..

My dad is really making his words come true. I want a PROMISING DAD but NOT in this way!! Why do my parents take each other words so SERIOUSLY when they know that the words are just not meant to be that way?! Why?! I am really confuse with them. I am really scare my family will tear apart. I don't want my parents to be separated! I am really praying very hard for that not going to happen, please!

I am so moody deep inside, but I have to act as if I am happy in front of everyone. I hate this kind of feeling. I want to do something that make my parents proud just like my sister. She is really hell so clever. My dad really proud of her. Even though, my dad don't express to her, but the way my dad act, shows how much he LOVE her and proud of her. My sister is awarded Diploma in Business Management by SIM. Why is she so clever while I am not!? She scored all mostly As and Bs expect 1 C. She is really a person who can study. I really wish that I am like her. I don't know if I am doing anything that can make my parents proud of me. I think I never.

I never get praise by them. No matter how well I did, my parents will never say "WELL DONE!" I really hate this feeling. When I did very badly, they will start to nag at me non stop. I wonder when my parents will be able to see my GOOD not my BAD.

Had a long chat with Doug over in msn. Thanks for listening to my "lao shao" when I needed to "fa xie". Thanks! Love you to the max, brother!

Yesterday was my last day @ work. Finally, I am free from that place. Thank GOD! Right now, all I need to do is to stay focus in my studies. That's the way man!